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It's Manda Lee
04 November 2010 @ 11:39 pm
I feel like we spend our entire lives building up for this moment of euphoria, we establish an expectation; we anticipate how we're going to feel -- and then you get to that moment, and you realize suddenly maybe it's not what you made it out to be, not what you wanted after all, and now how you wanted to feel.

So you end up back in front of a drawing board with a marker in your hand and ask yourself: "Okay, what next."

So life; what next?
 
 
It's Manda Lee
25 October 2010 @ 09:09 pm
So last Thursday I got a raise...$11.00

I'm grateful, but I can't help but wish it was more.

Sigh.

Oh well.

Friday night I did nothing.

Saturday I went to Ryan's for his 19th, John spilled beer on me -- gah. I also went to Downey's farm and played amongst the crazy ass Pumpkin's.

I wonder if it's considered a pumpkin patch if they're technically not attached to the vein anymore?

Wait -- it is a vein right?

Shit...

Any who -- we didn't actually buy any pumpkins from there because we couldn't justify paying $25.00 for 3 pumpkins which we were just going to carve and throw away after. You pay for the novelty of the experience I guess.

Sunday, I did nothing but clean, had dinner with the fam and the boypren. Then we met up with Queenie, Shaynn, Chen, Alex and Ryan [well, I picked Ryan up.] to go see Paranormal Activity 2 which I spent the majority of the time screaming like the chick that I am.

On a humourous note, I watched two grown men book it quick times outta there at one point. Jenn mentioned that they had a customer who literally SHIT himself while watching, pretty gross, huh?

NaNoWriMo is coming up soon as is Halloween.

Which in turn means...

DASHING THROUGH THE SNOW...

I'm a Christmas Fiend.
 
 
It's Manda Lee
21 October 2010 @ 11:02 pm
too lazy to do the picture survey today.

So, I'll do two tomorrow.

Forgive me?
 
 
It's Manda Lee
20 October 2010 @ 08:45 pm
10. a photo of you as a baby
11. the first photo on your phone that you took.
12. a photo of someone you were once close to but aren't anymore.
13. a photo of your best friend(s)
14. pictures of your room
15. a photo of you and someone you love
16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
17. a drunk photo of you
18. pictures of your car, in and out.
19. a photo of you on a school trip
20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
21. a photo of you and the last person you hung out with
22. a photo of you in downtown
23. a photo of you that nobody has seen before.
24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
25. a photo of a night you loved
26. a photo of your favorite weekend
27. a photo of you in your favorite piece of clothing
28. a photo of you today
29. a photo of someone you were once close to but can't stand anymore.
30. a photo of you and your favorite object

I suppose I had a tendency to lift up my dress as a child.

 
 
It's Manda Lee
20 October 2010 @ 08:44 pm
There was a period in time talking to you was easy...and now, it doesn't feel that way.

It sucks.

But that's just the way life goes.
 
 
 
It's Manda Lee
19 October 2010 @ 04:13 pm
I purposely left work early today at 3:30 so I could make it to my 4 o'clock dentist appointment to fill 4 cavities induced by 4 years of wearing braces.

This is the same appointment I'd already had rescheduled twice before due to a few family/money issues I needed to get sorted out. So, I had called last week to reschedule the Saturday appointment at 9:15 to another time, Janet on the other line said: "Sure thing, Amanda. How's October 19th at 4:00 work for you?" "Perfect." "Alright, we'll see you on the 19th."

Today is the 19th.

So, I left the office early, drove over, walked into to the office and the blonde receptionist behind the front desk is already looking at me funny, so I greet her instead. "Hi." "Hi..." "I have an appointment for 4pm." Finally, she starts to sit up, stop slouching, look like she actually gives a shit and glances at her appointment book. "Your name?" I tell her then she looks up at me, "Nope, you don't." "Pardon?" "You don't have an appointment." "That's impossible, look at your computer please."

She does as I ask, punches in my last name and then her eye brow raises. "It wasn't for the 19th, it's for the 20th." I got quiet and rub my forehead and then inquire: "Explain to me how the 19th get's confused with the 20th?" "She might have been looking at the wrong date." "That's fine that she made an error, but that doesn't change the fact that you know, I'm on hourly wages, not a salary, so this office has now just cost me an hour and a half of work, what's your policy on reimbursing your clients for your offices errors?" "Oh, we don't have one." "Go figure." "Sorry." "Yeah, tell it to my supervisor tomorrow when I have to say: 'Hey, sorry about that but I gotta go to a dentist appointment again.' He's going to look at me like I'm pulling the wool over his eyes."

So I start to gather my things and walk away and then she calls back, "Did you still want your appointment for tomorrow." Which really pissed me off for some reason -- I know it was a general question, but it irked me a great deal. "If it weren't for the fact that the cavities were in my FOUR MOLARS than no. But yes, tomorrow." "Okay."

Honestly, this is the SECOND time this has happened to me at this office. There is no sense of communication what so ever there. I even wrote it down on my calendar for the 19th, and the girl on the phone had repeated it back to me three times that it was the 19th at 4pm.

Miscommunication irritates me.
 
 
It's Manda Lee
19 October 2010 @ 12:33 am
Money makes the world go round, I know. I just wish it didn't feel like I depended on it so much, but the reality is -- I do. And with Christmas coming up, I'm worried. School is costing me a lot of money every month, and even when that's done I have to pay rent. It's like, I solve one expense, and another comes up.

Money, money, money, something funny...
 
 
It's Manda Lee
19 October 2010 @ 12:17 am
09. a photo of your family
10. a photo of you as a baby
11. the first photo on your phone that you took.
12. a photo of someone you were once close to but aren't anymore.
13. a photo of your best friend(s)
14. pictures of your room
15. a photo of you and someone you love
16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
17. a drunk photo of you
18. pictures of your car, in and out.
19. a photo of you on a school trip
20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
21. a photo of you and the last person you hung out with
22. a photo of you in downtown
23. a photo of you that nobody has seen before.
24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
25. a photo of a night you loved
26. a photo of your favorite weekend
27. a photo of you in your favorite piece of clothing
28. a photo of you today
29. a photo of someone you were once close to but can't stand anymore.
30. a photo of you and your favorite object

My mom's 40th birthday at my aunt's. [2009]

 
 
It's Manda Lee
08. a photo of your favourite band/musician that you've met.
09. a photo of your family
10. a photo of you as a baby
11. the first photo on your phone that you took.
12. a photo of someone you were once close to but aren't anymore.
13. a photo of your best friend(s)
14. pictures of your room
15. a photo of you and someone you love
16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
17. a drunk photo of you
18. pictures of your car, in and out.
19. a photo of you on a school trip
20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
21. a photo of you and the last person you hung out with
22. a photo of you in downtown
23. a photo of you that nobody has seen before.
24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
25. a photo of a night you loved
26. a photo of your favorite weekend
27. a photo of you in your favorite piece of clothing
28. a photo of you today
29. a photo of someone you were once close to but can't stand anymore.
30. a photo of you and your favorite object

I've never actually met them, but I did go to their concert last summer. I suppose that's the closest I've got/ever will get.

 
 
It's Manda Lee
07. a photo of a time you really wish you could do again and again
08. a photo of your favourite band/musician that you've met
09. a photo of your family
10. a photo of you as a baby
11. the first photo on your phone that you took.
12. a photo of someone you were once close to but aren't anymore.
13. a photo of your best friend(s)
14. pictures of your room
15. a photo of you and someone you love
16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
17. a drunk photo of you
18. pictures of your car, in and out.
19. a photo of you on a school trip
20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
21. a photo of you and the last person you hung out with
22. a photo of you in downtown
23. a photo of you that nobody has seen before.
24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
25. a photo of a night you loved
26. a photo of your favorite weekend
27. a photo of you in your favorite piece of clothing
28. a photo of you today
29. a photo of someone you were once close to but can't stand anymore.
30. a photo of you and your favorite object




I would really, really love to go back to California again. Morning Musume concert, the city life, the overall buzz, it was amazing.